Reluctant Hero

Chapter 3
Tony

Tony had been born in Berlin to a German mother, and a British father. His father had been a diplomat in the British Embassy in Berlin, and he had therefore spent most of his early life as a child in Berlin. His family had moved back to England in 1928, to the family farm in Wiltshire which was run by his Aunt in conjunction with her own farm which adjoined theirs. He had finished his schooling, and then gone on to Oxford. He subsequently decided on a career in the Royal Navy, and had gone on to Dartmouth the Royal Naval College and then commenced his subsequent career in the Royal Navy.

He enjoyed his leaves from the Royal Navy, and he very soon started taking an active part in the farms management, together with his first cousin Jean an attractive brunette who was about his own age, and unbeknown to him had a big crush on him. Many of the local girls including a few young married women set their hats at him, but Tony was a typical sailor and employed the philosophy “Love them and leave them.”

He studiously avoided any romantic entanglements, especially as it was fairly commonly assumed that war was imminent. The armed forces were recruiting for the Territorial Army and the RNVR was busy training weekend sailors. Contracts were hurriedly being given to local engineering works for military supplies.

Even in 1937 people were being encouraged to dig air raid shelters and schools and public buildings such as schools were pasting bandages over large windows, as a protection against flying glass from bomb explosions. Even Neville Chamberlains return from his ill fated meeting with Adolf Hitler and waving a piece of paper and saying “Peace in our time” seemed only the spur necessary to redouble the efforts.

Jean his cousin tried her hardest to get his attention, but Tony regarded her more like a sister. As far as he was concerned she was a good mate, and good fun, but no romantic thoughts ever occurred to him as far as Jean was concerned.

Obviously, Tony was bilingual and could easily pass as a natural German. Unknown to him in the early planning stage of this operation Anne-Marie had on the spur of the moment planted the idea in the minds of her German controller, that she was sure that she could get a naval Officer to defect. From that position, the Admiralty had been approached officially, to find someone who had all the necessary qualities and the whole scheme had escalated.

She had initially only been concerned in cementing her own position in the eyes of the German hierarchy but someone at the Admiralty with their wits about them suddenly caught on to the possibilities, and the idea of trying to get hold of enemy U Boat codes grew.

One factor that had eluded Tonys official records was that he was also fluent in French, and had a good working knowledge of Flemish. He realised in the early planning stages of the mission that somehow this did not seem to be known by his controller. He decided at the time that it might be a good idea to keep the knowledge to himself.

He had won his VC when he was First Lieutenant of an S Boat, which had found her forrard hydroplanes entangled in the cable of a floating mine. He had worked for an hour with a hand saw to free the cable in freezing cold water and at great risk to himself. Undoubtedly he saved the lives of all his shipmates and the submarine. Shortly after this he had been selected, and taken his Perishers command course which he passed, and had been subsequently appointed to his first command another S Class submarine. Later he was appointed to HMS Tenacious in which he had been very successful and he had received accelerated promotion.

Only the best officers were selected for the “Perishers course” and those who subsequently failed the course were returned to General Service. It was not a disgrace to fail, but the rule was that they could not ever serve in submarines again in their career.

One factor in Tonys favour for this operation, was the fact that prior to the war he had visited Germany frequently to visit his grandparents and friends. He knew Berlin well and had on several occasions as a young boy gone on holiday to Bavaria and the Black Forest with his grandparents. For a time he considered studying at the University at Heidelberg, but his parents pointed out that a career in the Royal Navy was best served by studying at a British University.

There was an element of truth in the fact that he did have many friends and close family who as far as he knew were still alive in the Berlin area. In fairness Tony had since the start of war worried about his grandparents, and cousins in Berlin and he vowed to himself that given the opportunity, he would pay them a visit if this operation went ahead.

Now on the first night of his marriage to Anne-Marie, he lay in bed as she slept with her head on his shoulder. He had to admit that in the few hours that he had known her, she was getting under his skin, and he was quite quickly becoming quite fond of her. Their lovemaking had been mind blowing, and Anne-Marie seemed in every possible way the perfect wife.

He shifted his body slightly to get her head into a more comfortable position. She was not totally asleep but moved down his body and for the third time that night she had his cock in her mouth and licking and sucking with enthusiasm.

Suddenly she stopped and walked to the window to look at the flashing of shells and the crump of bombs as the Luftwaffe once again visited Portsmouth. Turning she walked back to the bed and taking her nightdress in both hands she pulled the silk garment over her head , tossing it on the floor behind her in one swift fluid movement before she reached down and took his head in her hands. She kissed him with unrestrained passion.

“Damn you Tony Nash what have you done to me?” She mumbled.
As she kissed him again and again.
“I can not afford to fall in love in my job, and you are making me feel very vulnerable.”
Tony looked up at her as she stood naked in the faint light of the moon through the window.
He held out his arms “Oh, God, Anne-Marie, I’ve fallen for you too in a big way. We could lose it all.”
“I must not fall in love with you, if we did we must not let it show when we get over the other side.”
“I want you so desperately, even though I should know better.”
Tony said. “Anne-Marie we can only live for now. I’m here and you are here, and the moon is shining, lets not waste it.”
“Yes. Thank God, we have had these few nights to ourselves”
She crawled up on the bed on her hands and knees.
Her full breasts, tipped with moonlight, hung down just inviting his attention, and he reached for them greedily.
As he did she fell forward on top of him. She lay with the full length of her breasts pressed against his body. Feeling his hardness probing against her thighs. For some moments he caressed and fondled her. Enjoying her rigid nipples, the full roundness of her breasts, the warmth at the nape of her neck, the hot liquid wetness of her thighs. She lay still accepting his caresses, responding hotly. Her lips parted, her tongue pushed between them , she kissed his mouth and along his chin , his adams apple, and the lobe of his ear
She closed her fingers over his on her breasts.
We’ve got to be careful Anne-Marie. You mustn’t get pregnant it could be almost disastrous.
“We have to be careful”
“Darling you make it almost impossible.”
His hand moved down across the rounded planes of her belly, the muscles firm and taut.
“I’m getting fat. She whispered. “I will have to step up my exercises.”
“Darling, fucking is said to be good exercise, and I think I am in love with you after only a few hours.” Tony whispered.
“Tony you will meet other women and you will be expected to fuck them. You must promise me that you will do what you have to do. Never let the Nazis know how important we are to each other. We must both stay alive, that is one of the most important things.”
“Yes I understand. If that’s the way its got to be .from now on.” Tony responded.
Tony would not have had it any other way. Much as he thought he loved Anne-Marie, Tony knew in his own heart that given an attractive woman he could never be totally faithful. It was not in his nature

During his leaves he had never been short of female company .There had been Maria the beautiful Spanish girl who had been a hot favourite, and who was almost as randy as he was, but even she had been jealous of the amount of competition that existed for his favours. Maria was very hot, and very sexy, but Tony took what he wanted – like all the others he loved her and left her

Now he was with the one woman who had finally, at least for the time being, had captured his senses. She was something very special, and he could think of no-one else while he was with her. She exuded something very special, and when she made love, it was though she was giving him her all. It was a type of total abandonment he found suited his needs.

She lay supine in his arms, her blue eyes gazing up at him, silently commanding him to make love to her. She did not need to speak, her eyes conveyed the command, and he could not refuse.
His fingers moved down between the full wetly hot lips to her clitoris, which stood rigid, under his fingers. His breath hurt in his throat .
Her hand caught his stiffened cock and worked it with a kind of gentleness.
“You can’t stand this,” she whispered. “I’ll go down on you.”
“It’s all right. Just hold me.”
His heart thudded and he felt his cock grow harder in her hand, engorged with fresh flooding of blood.. She slipped down alongside his body, tracing her tongue across and over the muscled ridge of his belly. She lay her head on his stomach and opened her mouth. He thrust her forward roughly and she took his cock inside, her hot mouth closing,

His quivering hands closed in her blonde hair. His breathing rasped across his opened lips. and it was as if all the sensation in his body was concentrated in her sucking mouth.
“Wait,” he pleaded .”Please wait.
She withdrew her head with a faint whimper, staring up at him in the darkness
‘I can’t help it Anne-Marie, I’ve got to have it in you now.”
“I want you to.” She rolled over on her back and lay with her knees bent, her legs spread wide. She extended her arms , pulling him down on her .
“He thrust himself into her vagina , gasping I have to be in you Anne-Marie . Deep in you. Only then I will know you are mine.”
“I’m yours. For ever darling. Harder. Do it Harder.”
He heard as if from a great distance her soft moans, felt her legs embrace his waist, her ankles lock fiercely at his back. He could scarcely breathe: for that instant he felt as though his heart had stopped. He was conscious only of the fearful beating of the blood in his temples. He thrust himself upwards into her as deeply as he could, and lay still gasping for breath.
He had difficulty speaking.” “I have really fallen in love with you which is crazy after two days.”
Anne-Marie became serious, ”Remember darling and if you truly love me, if there is any trouble you walk away from me … don’t worry about me – you must complete the mission if at all possible.”
She shivered slightly. “No sense – in both of us being killed for nothing.”
Tony drove himself in her as hard as he could, pleasing her and punishing her in the same instant. He worked his hips faster, and her head rolled back and forth on the bed.
“You’re my life Anne-Marie” he panted. I couldn’t live without you. You know that”
“I know that.” Her own hips flailed upward in a savage rhythm. Matching his, increasing the tempo faster, faster until they lunged together that was more like hatred than love, more like a wish to destroy than to share, a totally unbridled passion.
She sagged beneath him, spent and felt the full weight of his body on hers in helpless exhaustion.
“I know darling but you must face the fact that you must, so many lives depend on us.”

The wedding was a wonderful affair with all the ships company of HMS Tenacious turning out at the Guildhall at the temporary registrar’s office. It was attended by a lot of senior officers, and even the Rear Admiral Submarines made a brief appearance. The new captain and First Lieutenant of Tenacious were both known to Tony and he wished them well.

The next few days were very busy as Tony underwent a crash course on helping him to survive in enemy territory. Much of this was trying to change his personality, to be utterly ruthless where it mattered. The mission was the major priority nothing else mattered, and it was hammered into him that the very survival of the British Empire was in his hands.

For the first time he learned much about the Nazi regime that was not public knowledge. Information on Gestapo techniques, and what the fiends were capable of were trickling through to his instructors and the British high command. He knew that he was being conditioned to learn how to survive, and how he must be utterly ruthless in the pursuit of his mission.

He now got confirmation of what Anne-Marie had been drilling into him even in the few hours they had known each other, that they must not show their intense love for one another. It was a weakness which the Gestapo would pounce on, if they deemed it necessary. In a crash course he learned how to kill quickly and silently, to pick locks and to make simple explosive devices.

Above all he learned that he had to do what he had to do to complete his mission. To trust no-one not even his own wife, and to keep his own counsel. Little did he realise at the time that he would soon be called upon to put many of these lessons into practice