Sitting here waiting for him. That is something I do on a very rare occasion. It has not been that many times that I have left the convent. I know deep down it is wrong, and that I should not. But, from a little girl I was raised here with the nuns. I had went one day to gather some tomatoes for all of us ladies for supper. A man walked near to me, as I was picking some tomatoes. He spoke to me very kindly, and might I add, with a very charming smile. He asked me " Do you need any help? ". I felt my face flush, for the first time in my life. My insides tingled in places they never had before. I turned to him and asked him " Please, that is if you don't really mind?". He got closer and closer to me as we were picking the tomatoes. I loved that manly scent on him, it was made of sweat. I remember inhaling his scent deep within my nostrils.

Oh, but the smell of a man. That is what I am waiting on today. For that same man to come and go to the lighthouse with me. That is where we always go, to have our special meetings. He touches me in places that I am not supposed to allow. I love every minute of it though, every time he touches me.
While I wait on him to arrive, I will finish telling you the story of our first meeting. And I shall start with his name, such a lovely name. His name is Nathaniel. I do love to feel his name roll from my lips.

We picked the rest of the tomatoes that mid afternoon, while talking and laughing, and just enjoying each others company. I was glad I had went away by myself to get the tomatoes, I could not have even spoken to this man if my sisters were with me. I then told him that I had to take the food and return it back to the convent. He then asked me with this twinkle in his eyes to walk with him to the lighthouse. The lighthouse is near the convent, so I thought that would be enjoyable. I said to him " Let me take our food back to the convent, then I must find a way to leave to spend time with you. So, you return back here at nightfall, and I will return then." He looked me in my eyes, bent down his head, and kissed me. Kissed me ever so lightly, with his beautiful lips. Then looked me in my eyes and said " I will be here waiting for you on your return."

I was so extremely nervous that evening of getting caught. But, it made my body feel so wonderful to know I was going to commit a very deep sin. I waited until all of the other sisters had gone to their beds. I then took it upon myself to go out the backdoor of the convent. So much quieter than the other doors. While walking to the lighthouse, these butterflies kept flying around in my stomach. I had never known such a feeling, and little did I know this was just the beginning.
When I arrived at the lighthouse, I began to see on the ground, in front of the door these beautiful rose petals. They were of the most beautiful colors, white and red. I opened the door, and closed it behind me. As I turned around I seen that there were candles lit all around the stairwell and the bottom floor. Soft rose petals laying everywhere. And right in the middle of the little area was a pile of hay. On top of that hay was Nathaniel. I had never seen a man naked in my life, even at the age of twenty-six. He was completely naked, and his body was absolutely beautiful. He looked towards me and said " Take your clothes off, and let me show you heaven. Come to me, and I shall teach you what to do."

I was definitely scared, but I wanted nothing more than Nathaniel's body pressed against mine. I slowly peeled all of my hot clothing off of my body. It was as if the room had gotten hotter the minute I laid eyes on him. I walked up to the stack of hay he was on top of. He said nothing to me at all, laying in front me. His face was right upon my pussy. He pulled me closer and began to suck on my pussy. He was teasing it with his tongue, sticking it inside of my pussy. He would pull it back out, and lick on it some more. He was doing wonderful things to my body. He placed a finger inside of me, and I could not help but moan. A sound like that had never come out of me before. It startled me, and I tensed up. He said " Just relax and enjoy the feelings of your body. It is natural."

I began to relax and the more I relaxed, the more I would moan. He then asked me to talk to him, to tell him how I feel. Just as he said that this wonderful feeling came over my body. I asked of him " Please don't stop, keep touching me in that way. It feels so good." He looked up at me and said " You are having an orgasm, you like that?". "Oh,yes!" was all I could manage to say. My body was bursting like tiny bubbles on the inside. 

He then stood up in front of me as my body calmed. He put his penis in front of my face and told me to take it in my mouth. I took all of him, and he held my face. He pushed his body back and forth, and sent his dick into my mouth over and over again. He taught me how to give a man such pleasure of the mouth. He began to moan and said to me " That feels so good, your first time?" I just nodded my head yes for him. He was so huge in my mouth, and tasted so good. He pulled away from me, and told me he wanted to explode inside of me.

He bent my body over the stairwell railing. He said " This will only hurt for a minute, but after that, you will enjoy all of this cock inside of you baby!" I had never had a man speak to me in that way, but I loved it. He began to slowly go inside of me, it felt like my skin was going to rip in every direction. So, I moaned very loudly. He held me at my hips, and begin to push deeper and deeper in my pussy. He said " You have such a tight little cat, I like that." He started pounding into me as hard as he could. It hurt so good, I was screaming and moaning so loud. " Oh, fuck that pussy. I love how you make me feel." He grabbed my hair and pulled me more into him with it. He began to pump deep into me again, and stopped while holding unto my hips. His body twitched and convulsed while deep inside of me. He slammed deeper every couple of seconds into my pussy. I could feel his dick pulsating inside of my pussy. While moaning the whole time he came, right along with me.

 We then lay suspended on the hay side by side. I turned to him, and asked " May I ever see you again Nathaniel? " He assured me that yes he would. We then started to put our clothing back on our bodies. I could feel all of his juices running back out of me and down my leg. I had bled a little also. I knew I would have to take a bath when I returned to the convent. We then made arrangements to see one another the first day of every month. He kissed my lips deeply as I was walking out of the door. And then we said our goodbyes. As I was walking away, he blew a wind kiss to me. And, I can almost sware I thought I felt it on my cheek that day.

So, as I said, here I am waiting for him to come again. It is the first of the month. I think I will end my life of a nun here soon. For he wants to be with me as I do him. It is only right of me, for I do not want to upset the Father anymore than I am sure I have. But until I decide, I will sit and wait here at the lighthouse every month for my Nathaniel. 

There he is, I see him over the hill now. So, I must set this paper aside for the wind to take away for now. I shall tell you more later, maybe......